I've been finding myself to be narcissistic lately. It's really strange. I used to hate myself a lot. like a lot. and that part is totally still there. But I'm just like talking a lot lately like I like the sound of my voice, and revealing shit that people totally don't care about. Then I reflect back on it like right now and I'm just like who the fuck do I think I am?
I think reconnecting with my art really boosted my confidence and I felt like I was good for something again. My art picked me off the ground and pumped my stomach of the pills I took to kill myself. And now I think I'm the shit? What kind of turn around is that? I'm wondering If I still hate myself a lot. like a lot. and this is my coping. I'm worried it isn't because this shit is even fooling me. I don't want to interrupt people as their talking to say something only relevant to me. I am a great listener- I just don't think I've been as skillful as I can be. Been a little careless. I'm tired of being a bad person.
Anyhow here's some self love
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